It Has Been a Year?

Wow it has been a year since I posted, between dealing with dads surgery and my RA life has been tough. However I am thankful that things have smoothed out and life is a sail once again. So time for pics, grandkids, neices, nephews, and more. Oh the Joy the babys bring....

Pismo Beach Feb. 19, 2011 Oh my I must not forget my anniversary, I did have a wonderful time!

Well, wow it is already the middle of March and a new year..You can see that I missed some months of posting for 2011, why...so much going on, a seperation, job changes, sickness, sadness, and happiness. I did spend Christmas with the family and I am doing better now..so for the sake of getting the year 2011 off to print I will wrap it up with this posting and start my new year even though it is already a few months in.

some facebook notes: Weaping in silence still is the night little noise around me Memories from the past loss of future dreams staying in the moment hoping for what is right oh for understanding Waiting for clarity Still in the light Bill Hornback "Trying to understand, to figure it out, is the mind's game. Accepting what "is" without judgment is enlightenment. Follow the light."

So much more I want of you Closer deeper, unmistakenly knowing the love of my maker, creator, master, I call you Lord, but whole heartedly I desire to serve You,stronger than any touch I have had before, yet the presence I felt before seperate from the so many belief systems, just closer , closer , closer to you. I seek knowledge, wisdom,and understanding I seek You, Your Holy Word speaks continually knock and the door shall be open seek and ye shall find, Im seeking, I am knocking, if it is merely my flesh, then change it, change it so the selfishness is not calling you, but that my spirit cries out for you with unmistakenly passion , teach me, touch me, breath on me Holy Spirit, bring your presence into my life , mightly , lost in you is where I want to be, no double standard, no luke warmness, no confusion, only understanding , assurance, to the point where others see You when they look at me, let them see You Jesus, let them see you Father, allow them to see you Holy Spirit, when they look at me.With humilty and boldness I come before your throne this morning, into the Holy of Holies, nto your presence, where grace so mightly abounds.

via Whitney Ferre "What is your mind? It is all that you have known. It is the past, the dead, that which has gone. Mind is nothing but the accumulated past, the memory. Heart is the future; heart is always the hope, heart is always somewhere in the future. Head thinks about the past; heart dreams about the future." OSHO, from the book Courage, The Joy of Living Dangerously.............. .......Growing with time, believing in change Change is NOW in the moment.. I knew I was coming , I have strength to go on, I am devoted to my Creator, His love I pass on To be different , is to be me.... For God made each unique, and forever I so shall be.... With Father, Son, and Holy Ghost lies the freedom of being me....

WHEN LIFE GETS BUSY

Oh my I have been busy, a few weeks ago I spent some time in Riverside with the ladies from Awesome women Hub, I felt so relaxd and rested , now I feel like just sleeping, but I have work to do. I am so glad I have God in my life, when I get busy He always reminds me to slow down and evaluate what I am doing. I like to say I am busy about my Fathers business;-)

My first e-book is about finished, Im working with someone to get my state and federal stuff in line for the coaching business,I am working on marketing, and I went and ordered my passport. So happy to be going places!

I remind myself though when I sense and know with an inner knowing to rest, that God is doing a work in me. So important when life get's busy to remember to stay close to the Father, seek Jesus, and the Holy Spirit.

God's word states, "knock and the door shall be open, seek and ye shall find! God's Holy word shall forever hold true.


Thank you Father for closing the doors that needed closed, opening the doors that required opening in my life!

Mothers Day

Well, mothers day just passed, this was the hardest so far without mom, its been a few years, and of course I miss her. I thought it fitting to ad moms day to a post. Times have been challenging lately, but each day I work towards a closer walk with my creator and desire that which I believe He has chosen for me, I receive all the gifts He has so greatly bestowed upon me. Should be easy right? But just as most a struggle at times to understand the full beauty of the presence of God in my life, and what a gift He gave me in my mother, through all the ups and downs, I know my Father God loves me, even at times when I do not feel like loving myself, just like mamma used to do!

Racing and life

So, much to catch up on. I went to the races in Alabama for Nascar...my first race and I had so much fun. The whole event including the flights there were powerpact with information about my Christianity and everyday happenings in life. I have some pictures Ill upload soon. As I listened over the scanner to some of my fav drivers, I was reminded of how when the crew chiefs spotted the drivers, and how the Holy Spirit guides and speeks to the spirit. I wartched drivers lead and then fall behind, lead again, then fall behid, just like in life you gain some ground and then seem to step back. Im in a race of sorts a spiritual race and I have a comforter, I have armor just like the race drivers are protected in their cars, so I am instructed to put on the whole armor of God to fight the good fight, stay in the race. So much mor I could write, but off to work, more soon.

Beginnings

This morning I blogged on my coaching site about beginning again,maybe physically, emotionally, maybe both, and I recall on the path I have been on. I have went through much change and continue to go through more. The thing is things I thought I worked through come up and wow, Im so glad I have tools and resources now to help me get through moments that feel like sudden panic. Life, life is good even admist the ups, downs, and everyday things, but Im striving for better, and why, because it is my God given right to reach my place as the daughter of the Most High God, paid for with a price, by Jesus Christ, and filled with the Holy Spirit.

I have a new beginning, I went to a a church a client invited me to and it is promising, things lined up my thoughtd, my actions, my feelings, Im happy about the church, a place for me to get connected. Yes, I am an introvert , but only at times, get me out and I can love and rejoice and share and listen to others, seems funny because when I am home, Im thinking, Im studying, Im resting in the presence of the Father.